apple peels from when i made an apple compotte yesterday.
this blog is a reminder to enjoy the little thing and to keep on creating!
mar. 10 2026 - little drawing for today :)
apple peels from when i made an apple compotte yesterday.
OK singing off!
gros bisou-clem <3
mar. 9 2026 - its been its been a while, i def want to remind myself this space is a no judgement space for myself where i can just word vomit anything. these past few months have been so difficult, my parents separation, not feeling fulfilled at work, thomas leaving, finding a new home for the cats, plus clement’s death, jen’s death, my own traumatic shit that im still carrying with me everywhere. there’s so much to deal with and there's so much my body and mind can take. i know i just need to take care of things day by day and each things at a time but it hard to not spiral. i def made the right choice with the cats even if its still hard to admit that it wasn't time for me to have them. taking care of myself is a priority right now. i need to first make my apartment a place where i truly feel happy and comfortable and unfortunately the first stem was to not have the cats around. as ive said a few time, ove lost complete touch with myself, physically and mentally. and i know its gonna take time but finding small things that can bring me joy is key. im glad that i booked the life drawing session cause ive been wanting to do that for a while now, drawing was always my happy place and loosing that i think is when it all went down hill, cause the amount of time i was just in my head drawing, it was so necessary for my brain. also to focus on my body continuing to do tai chi to calm and balance myself + dance choreo, to also loosen my body and feel more comfortable moving. also already being off inta has been so nice and so sad that social media has done this to most of us but so be it. that space doesnt feel safe anymore so it is time to move away from it.
its been nice to be back and hope to come again soon to show what has been happening <3
OK singing off!
gros bisou-clem <3
jan. 13 2026 - so ive obviously have not kept my resolution. im still fiding it really hard to find space to make art when its already hard to keep up with my life routine. BUT. i did organise all mp3s which is has been really nice and excited to find a good mp3 player to start actually practicing being of smartphones.it sounds so cliche i know cause im still on insta so much but im really trying. its just crazy how much i cock block myself with making anything.like fore music i want to work on visuals but whats truly stopping me to start working on that on my one? nothing but my insecurity, and its so hard to move past that. i feel fomo for not releasing anything but then lose my shit and get imposter indrome when i start working on music so wtf am i to do?? should i ask more help from my friends? should be more organised and make lists of things i need to accomplish? honestly all these are good ideas and things i should really do.
reach out to people and stay focused and organised.
honestly doesnt sound bad at all! i gotta trust myself and abbilities. i know i have good ideas and i know i have the capacity to make cool things so i should just fucking do it.
To finish today, i want to not set goals and be easier on myself. i think taking notes of what i need to do in order to finish a project is a really good idea. i know im visual and have things writen down makes it easier to process, espcially with my crazy obsessive brain.
OK singing off!
gros bisou-clem <3
jan. 08 2026 - this is my first day actually using this site. i find the idea of using a new platform and i gues also, artform pretty excitting. ive been feeling pretty emplty for quite a while now, emotionaly and phisicaly. i guess its the winter blues or something but its been hard to find meaning in my art. not that art has to have a meaning but ive def lost touch with my practice and making art that is for me. social media has pretty much ruined the way i create and finding this platform, that i honestly hope no one finds, is pretty fun
my plan is to create a little every day, weather its drawing, making music, scrap booking, whatever. i want to log it here and kinda talk about my day. i really want to make art a routine. and maybe that might sound negatuve that art is a routine but art is my life, literally, and i need to create all the time feel good and its not what ive been doing.
i used to draw every day as a child/ teen and i dont do any of that anymore. i work a job that is pretty much draining me of my life source. working on a music project that i love ,dont get me wrong, but it feels like im trying to prouve to others that im talented instead of just having fun.
today, i received a thermal printer. and printed this sexy pic of me that honestly really like.
thats what im saying when i say i want art to be a routine. doesnt matter if its big or small. i just want to make soemting every day. so today i used y new termal printer and printed this sexy pic!
anotherthink i want to add, is that ive lost touch with myself not only my mind which is the artistic drive that ive been talking about but my body too. i used ti be so body positive and so comforatble with my body. taking sexy pics all the time. painting myself nude. HAVING SEX! with myslef or others. and all of that is gone. my sexuality is so important to me and being able to feel safe with my self but aslo others is sooooo premordial. and i truly miss that.
i always say that i dont care about new years resolutions but i 100% need to be happy. thats all i nedd to concentrate on, making, doing things that make me happy.
so my plan for 2026 is:
for now this is my list and i will add to it when i think its necisary!
OK finally singing off!
gros bisou-clem <3